CruuuciaL :3

The hardest part in reviewing is not the part when you're answering tons of questionnaires. It's when you see your friends having the time of their lives and you're stuck at home with so much to do, it's when your all-time favorite movie is on TV and you just can't watch, it's when your family go out of town and you can't go with them, it's when you have SO MANY things in mind and you just can't actualize them YET because you're reviewing. Most of my co-reviewees had it coming. I didn't.

Lord, I need you. Help me. Please?

APOLOGY

I am so SOOOOOOOOOORRYYYY! I owe you so many entries! Like, the entry about my fantastic Camiguin vacation and how I spent my idle summer time watching action movies I missed and how I settled for the mall benches with a bunch of fries in my hand, while the other is busy texting! Missing those entries is so unthinkable of me! Today is the START of the review classes which will hopefully END well by October this year! Then I'll take the CPA  Board exam and wait for the results (>.<) and pray for the best and it is only by then I might have the free time to share to you what happened this summer.

OKAY. It sounds weird and I've got so much in mind and I KNOW and I am well-aware that the details won't be the same but I'm giving you my word now, that my subsequent entries will be fun-filled and will be written by heart. :3 TEHEEEEEE. :] trust me! ^.^

For now, I'm browsing my old pdf files in audit theory and I couldn't just imagine how I'll manage to read and absorb all of these, to think it's just one of the "eight" (8) subjects I have to master! And there's  this tempting wifi connection we have which causes my innocent fingers to browse through google and view the different profiles of my hollywood inspirations or log in to twitter or facebook....AAAAHH! :'(

So if you're with me now, please let me deal with this thing first (the review school). Okay? I may be able to post some short or medium-length entries from time to time during the course of the review, but let's save the summer entry for last okay? I mean, it should be DEAD-LENGTHY and super duper fun-filled so it will really require so much time!

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I will be missing you so. 'Til then! Wish me focus and indomitable faith to believe and succeed! God bless! :)

Just A Kiss

"Just a shot in the dark that you just might be the one I've been waiting for my whole life. So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight."

Hey you! I'll be waiting for you. Te amo. <3


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_yTphvyiPU

Grown-up Christmas List

If you think you're one of those major losers who think that Christmas is about surprises and gifts and blings, don't worry. Baby, count me in. Well, that was me 18 years ago. I can still recall every time I pray to God during my "simbang gabi" sessions with granny, I would bravely ask the Lord to make me strong. I've always defined myself as weak and feeble. Looking back, I could not thank my self more. I was thankful that even though I did not fully understand what I was asking from God, He lovingly chose to gradually provide for me that wish. At least, now I'm learning.

Being strong is not just about being able to control your tears every time they're about to flood your eyes. Being strong is also having the right disposition every time you are faced with a tough problem. I have now come to realize that it is not your immediate reaction that defines your totality as a person, rather it's the long-term effect of your actions after you have cried for every problem, after you have pondered upon the "best deemed fit" solution and after you have forgiven yourself for every shortcoming that brought you to that situation.

The year 2012 has been a tough year for me. I never imagined it to be so cruel and defining. I never thought there is such thing as crying every night for more than a month, I never thought there was such thing as betrayal right under your flat nose, and I have never imagined myself to be so strong as to withstand failures in both academic tests and life-changing circumstances.

I have heard of Mariah Carey's Grown-up Christmas list rendition for so many times, but it was only this year that I was fully able to understand its worth. My grown-up Christmas list has gotten better now, not that dear old Santa failed to grant them, but because I am still on my way to opening my heart and my mind to the reality that my Lord has provided for me all the things I need, and those that I wanted.

I'm a grown-up now. And inasmuch as I would want to be given a P10000 worth of gift check from high-end shoe stores, I'd rather give up my year's worth of savings for the people I love and for those who has made a difference in my life. Who knows I might accidentally be the instrument to grant one of the things on their list?

Merry Christmas! :)